Never again.

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:/

When I first met you, you smiled at me like you had a secret to tell. I knew what I was doing was trouble, with you being barely legal and both of us working for your dad and what not. But I couldnt help myself, you spoke so sweet and bite your tongue when you smile, it makes me melt inside. The way you kiss my neck so soft is almost too much for me to handle, and how you run your hands down my back when youre underneath me. You used to call me every night before you went to bed, and make me call you so youd wake up for work. But I didnt mind, Id do anything for you, even still I feel that way. You say you dont want to get attached because youre leaving for college, but youre only an hour and a half away, Id make that drive every fucking day if you wanted me to. What im really trying to say, is you made a place for yourself in my head and my heart. I can’t get you out today, but ill try again tomorrow not to think about you… And I bet ill fail again just like the last month of trying. I dont want to lay in bed staring at my ceiling while I hear your giggle or see your eyes in front of mine. Its killing me slowly at this point, and all I want to do is drug myself to sleep every night because of it. I never let a girl get this close to my heart before, especially without me knowing. But this girl has me mentally ripped and torn and twisted for her touch to be mine once again. I thought I fell in love once before, but you have me tied in a knot around the dagger love comes in. I just want to be able to say I got past this, But then again I really dont want you out of my head. I just want you laying next to me again, telling me I make you smile and giggling at my stupid comments. 

So tonight ill get drunk by myself, with no shame whatsoever to it. Because I dont want to hear you say my name anymore, your voice never leaves my head.

Call me a bitch, tell me im over reacting to the situation because it was only a month that we were even involved. But I dont care, ive never given a fuck about someone so much in my life. But I cant make you feel the same way, and thats hard to accept for somebody who doesnt get denied often.

I just want you back in my arms, telling me everything is ok.

seasickdreamss:

Say you’ve never done this before while you’re droppin’ all your clothes on my bedroom floor.

Im at a point

Where I want to drown out thoughts of you with copious amounts of drugs…. And that really sucks.